Making a Comeback

It's been a long time since I last wrote in this journal. My life has changed a lot in the past few months. Sometimes I sit and wonder how I got here and I'm sad that I have nothing to refer back to. My memory isn't as good as it use to be and so significant events, though I remember them, are fuzzy and I need someone to help jog my memory all the time. I guess the biggest announcement is that I'm going back to school in July. I finally decided to go back and get my Masters in Strategic Communication through National University. Although not my first choice for schooling, I knew it was now or never and I couldn't take myself out of the workforce to attend SDSU. I'm really nervous for school to start. I feel like my life is going to change again and in a dramatic way. My priorities are going to shift and I'm going to feel a bit overwhelmed at times.

I want to start writing again because it's theraputic and because I wan to share how wonderful my life is now. Things are falling into place and everything is beginning to make sense. I am so excited for life (though nervous, too!)

I can't wait to reconnect with people.

Hello, world!

And I'm back!

I've been a very bad blogger lately. I don't really have a good explanation other than, I've been busy. The problem with me is that I let life and people get in the way of my routine. For a while I was talking to an exboyfriend who took up a lot of my free time. I thought we were on a good path and so I allowed him to take up some of my time, however, recently he disappeared. This isn't me trying to call him out on my blog but I need to remind myself that I always need to put my needs before others. 

Just tonight I read this quote in "Practical Paleo": 

"Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again while expecting different results each time." 

It really hit home for me because I've gone through this cycle with this exboyfriend before. I've set my needs aside before and I was always walked over or forgotten. This isn't to say he's a bad person, but the situation definitely wasn't good for my mental health. 

During the past month, a lot has changed. I joined Crossfit Chula Vista and took the "on-ramp" course which is basically an intro to Crossfit. I enjoyed every minute of it except for when I couldn't breath. I also changed my life-style in the sense that I no longer a vegetarian. My first class for Crossfit was basically an attack on my diet situation. Not a bad attack but an attack none-the-less. I decided to challenge myself. I never stopped eating meat to make a political statement, I stopped because I needed a life-style change. Three years later and I still felt like something was missing so I decided to use the information I learned and begin my "paleo" journey. Has it been easy? Well, yes and no. The first week I was a little nauseous from the meat but eventually my body stabilized and I feel great. I sleep better at night, I have more energy during my workouts, and I'm slowly learning to control my eating habits. No processed foods, no grains, no legumes, no sugar - What do I eat?! Everything else! 

Here are some pictures from September.... 

Feeling pretty at work

Learning to embrace my body for what it is

Destroying my legs with box jumps - seriously my nightmare. Everyone said, "Jump higher!" and I said that my body just wasn't ready to do that. I was right but I'll get better. 

Working hard or hardly working? Ehh... 

It's easy being paleo! I'm really excited about this haul. 

To end this post, I'd like to share that I reached an amazing milestone....

You read that right - 199.0!

Right now, my weight is currently fluctuating but I was excited to see me break the 200's. I just want to say good-bye to them once and for all! 

This has been a long, difficult month for me but I'm hoping October and the rest of the year get easier. I also hope to continue sharing my journey with everyone. Anyone out there?

I'll be here!

Sunday Weigh-In 013

204.4 :)

This week I've been doing a lot of thinking about my methods and the way I keep track of my weight. I wouldn't say it's an obsession (yet) but every morning (this past week) I've weighed myself and tracked it on My Fitness Pal. Every day was a different weight and every day I struggled to comprehend the difference whether it was a loss or a gain. It made me realize that I want to switch to a monthly weigh-in instead of a weekly one. At least in the sense of documenting because I feel a weekly weigh-in makes my weigh-ins seem less important. 

Throughout the month I want to focus on health and wellness and beauty (which can include fashion and the like). I want to focus on things that make me happy and keep me motivated. While seeing the difference on the scale is encouraging, I feel it hinders readers from truly understanding who I am. I'm not just a weight-loss blog tracking "health" by the scale. I feel the scale is an important tool to help keep things in perspective for me but I don't believe it should be the end all, be all to my weight or health journey.

I hope with this change that you, dear reader, will learn more about me. I am open to answering any questions you may have and I hope that this change will help my readers relate to me more. 

I hope you all had a wonderful week. 

Until next time, keep smiling!